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Motivation to JUST DO IT

February 8, 2010 · Leave a Comment

It seems as if every New Year is the date to join gyms, diet programs and lose weight. In the beginning, motivation is high; determination is unending and perseverance is unstoppable. But after a while, interest wanes, energy depletes and incentive for a new life comes to a stand still.

This week I will have reached a 6 month milestone of healthy living. I still question why my motivation has continued, even when I don’t feel like exercising or eating healthy. Here are some reasons that have helped me push forward and not give up. I hope they motivate you to restart, continue or begin a journey of health.

1. Exercise…not only has given me a new body but is also a great stress reliever. When I exercise, I can lose myself in the movements instead of thinking about all the stuff that is clogging down my faith, my life or my optimism. It also provides moments of reflection which help answers or solutions to develop.

2. Breathing…has taught me to be aware of how I react when I am in stressful situations. I have learned to breath deep from my core instead of from my chest. It has also become much less labored due to exercise.

3. Muscles…are developing. My turkey waddle under my arms is much less, my thighs no longer rub together when I walk, my stomach is much leaner, my chin no longer has a twin, and my heart beats with a regular rhythm, recovering much faster after an aerobic workout.

4. Clothes…fit much nicer. Before, I could not find anything because it was way too small. Now I can’t find anything because it is too big!! Yet, when I do find clothes, I can fit in the lastest fashions. And I don’t have a closet full of black clothes but also purple, red, pink, yellow and other colors.

5. Life longevity…is a benefit from living a healthy life. Did you know for every hour of exercise, you gain 2 hours of life? Not that I want be immortal but I sure would like to live longer than my 47 years already. Plus, regular exercise may help to prevent disability as the body ages.

6. Breast Cancer, PMS, Mood Swings, Heartattack, Osteoporosis…all risks that may affect a woman’s life. Healthy living and eating can help prevent the onset of these abominations.

7. It is/was/has to be time…to get in shape, eat better, and be stronger. Now is the best time to just do it.  Even if this means exercising for 5 minutes at a time, substituting 1 glass of water for a cup of coffee, eating an extra serving of 1 fruit or veggie every day, or not shaking the salt shaker as much. One day at a time as been my mantra throughout. And sometimes, starting with small goals, one at a time is the best way to incorporate change.

The most important things I have learned are…
-I will fall. I will cave in. I will be tempted.  But no matter what, I need to get back up, figure out what caused me to cave and decide to say no next time.
-No is a complete sentence. I don’t have to explain myself to anyone else. I am not accountable to anyone else. I only have me to answer to, be responsible for, and figure out whether I can.
-Try is too easy of an excuse and often leads to failure. It is not as definite as can, will, or must. Instead of trying, do it. You can because your will is strong and your spirit must.
-Change is not easy to get through or accept. I consider myself a fairly flexible person. However, healthy living requires constant change. Many changes have occurred on my own journey…choosing to give up comfort foods, rise at 5;30 am 4x a week, not eat after dinner, give up all pop products, use the word ‘fat’ when describing my former self, look at myself butt naked, gaining a differnt body, and choosing to put myself first. None was easy…but all were necessary.
and the best one…
-Hearing my husband utter the words, “You are a sexy mama!” Even if I am not doing this for him, that is the main motivator to keep me going because I know the health I have gained is benefiting others as well.

Let me know what you think.

JC & G,
Annie

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On A Lighter Note…

February 7, 2010 · Leave a Comment

Found these questions over at Sparkpeople from Smile12985’s blog. I need to get out of my funk so I decided to answer some of them. Also gives you another chance to know more stuff about me as well!

1. How do you like your steak? Well done…almost burned as a matter of fact with lots of butter and mushrooms on top

2. What was the last movie you saw? UP…really great!!!

3. What is your favorite tv show? I don’t have a favorite since I usually tend to flip, eratically, through the channels until something good catches my eye.

4. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? Anywhere there was LOTS of land, nature, beautiful views and seasonal changes.

5. What is your favorite food? Edy’s Peppermint Stick Ice Cream…which I did not dare buy AT ALL last year because I knew the tempation would be WAY TOO GREAT!!!

6. What foods do you dislike? Anything super duper spicy…am also not a fan of Indian cuisine 

7. Favorite Place to Eat?  Used to be Red Lobster till my hubby took me to Big Fish on my birthday…we will be returning on Valentine’s Day :)

8. Favorite Dressing? Poppyseed or Newman’s Own Caesar

9. Favorite Fruit? Banana…makes sense as most of friends, coworkers and family call me Anniebananie

10. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Ford Escape

11. What are your favorite clothes? Hands down…my jammies

12. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Maine; Copper Harbor & Royal Isle in Michigan; Montana; all the places my blog friends live

13. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Neither…just glad something is in it.

14. Where would you want to retire? Anywhere as long as it is with my hubby by my side.

15. Favorite time of day? Between Midnight and 4 am

16. Where where you born? Detroit, Michigan

17. What is your favorite sport to watch? Football…now that I semi understand it :)

18. How many siblings? 1 brother-5 years older and 1 sister-18 months younger

19. Favorite pasttime/hobby? Writing, reading, spending time with family

20. Morning person or night person? Definitely a night person

21. Any pets? Yes…2 kitties, 1 dog

22. What did you want to be when you were little? A teacher and a mom…I am a former teacher and still a mom!

23. What is your best childhood memory? Any times spent with family

24. Cat or dog person? Even though I have both, I am more of a cat person.

25. Any pet peeves? People who think of themselves and/or who are rude and inconsiderate.

26. Favorite pizza toppings? Well, I don’t eat this as much anymore as my stomach can’t handle the greasiness. But I love thin Garbage can pizza which has almost every topping on it except anchovies.

27.Favorite flower? Roses…they remind me of my grandmother.

28. Favorite fast food restaurant? Used to be McDonald’s till I began my healthy living journey. However, I occasionally enjoy a junior Roast Beef from Arbys.

29. From whom did you get your last email? Sparkpeople.com

30. Which store is your favorite place to shop? I have two and unfortunately they are in the same strip mall…Target and Kohls.

31. Do anything spontaneous lately? No

32. Favorite vacation spot? Mackinac Island or anywhere up north in Michigan

33. Like, love or hate your job? LOVE IT!!!

34. Favorite vegetable? Cucumbers

35. Favorite color? Tickle Me Pink by Crayola

36. Any tattoos? Not yet…

37. Most daring thing you have ever done? Went parasailing and took my oldest son who was 6 years old at the time

38. Most daring thing you wish to do? Tandem hang glide and parachute

39. Coffee or Tea drinker? Both

40. Favorite words? God, faith, believe, hope and love

41. Nonfavorite words? Bigotry, racism, hate, and anything that is derogatory.

42. Favorite person? My grandmother…she is now my guardian angel.

44. What three words best describe who you are? Optimistic, Spiritual, Strong

and finally since it is Super Bowl Sunday…

44. Saints or Colts? Of course the Saints because they have never been to the Super Bowl and Drew Breeze is from Purdue which is my husband’s almamater. Plus if I don’t root for the Saints I will not be invited to the man den to watch the game :)

Blessings…

JC & G,

Annie

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The Truth of The Matter

February 6, 2010 · 5 Comments

Last night I anxiously slept, tossing, turning, dreaming that my son had returned. I woke up just after I dreamed I was holding him in a bear hug. I went searching for him this morning. But like a needle in a haystack, I was not able to find him. I searched for 2 hours, realizing that maybe he doesn’t want to be found. Maybe he needs to be in the place he is in to come to a better understanding of what is happening in his life right now. Maybe he doesn’t want to be found because he does not need my mothering right now. Maybe he just needs to be…

I admit I am a bear of a mom when it comes to any of my family members, but especially with my children. I tend to be way over protective, way over loving and way over coming to the defense when things go wrong in their lives, despite the choices they have made. I know I need to back WAY OFF, especially if I ever want my kids to live independently. However, with everything my oldest has gone through, I find it harder and harder to let go. The fear that he will not return kills me. And maybe that is the problem…I have not let him live his life. Funny how writing somehow brings out the truth.

Let me say it again…I have not let him live his life. Oh that hurts to hear it, see it and even write it because I want him to be successful and I bet all these years, this bear of a mom has put up so many hurdles that he probably feels like he can’t jump anymore, let alone get to the finish line. Letting go and letting God is sometimes tough enough but being a mom who has to let go is the worst! And yet, I know for him to survive, for him to feel proud, for him to learn to deal with whatever happens due to his choices, I MUST back off, I MUST let him be, I MUST let go.

Right now, I am crying tears of pain, for the times I thought I was being a good mom when I should have let go. I totally understand why he is not coming home. He probably feels that no matter what the issue is, I will once again return to my soap box, lecturing him, instead of listening, giving unneeded advice, instead of having him think it through and over reacting, when I don’t know the whole story.

When my kids were wee ones, I had nightmares of losing them. I remember chasing them down long corridors, yelling their names, as they turned the other way. That fear of loss has turned into a possessiveness and dominance that I realize, while writing this, I should have stopped a long time ago.

I know we all make mistakes and at times, in the past, I have not been the most encouraging or most understanding of moms or people. I can see why my son needs time to figure it all out. He doesn’t want or deserve my wrath ever again.

Ironically, though, everytime something has happened, God reminds me of the story of the Prodigal Son. This time, though, He has been making sure that every moment I am aware of it.

In my life, I may not always feel God’s presence but somehow, someway He makes sure to let me know He is there. I have made many mistakes, disappointed Him too many times to count and begged forgiveness when I was least deserving. Through it all, I have never once heard God yell, lecture, or take over when I walked down the wrong path. He followed me or walked beside me the whole way, but never uttered, “I told you so.”

I still pray my son comes home. But I realize when he returns, I need to grab him in a bear hug, no questions asked, tell him I love him and give him time to share his thoughts, if he so desires. And if he does share, I need to keep my mouth shut, hold out my hand, and listen without adding my two cents. If he doesn’t chose to share? Then I need to respect his privacy. For it is his life, not mine. It is his path to walk, not mine. It is his journey…

So my pray has changed,

Dear Lord,
I asked that you continue to watch over my son, bringing him home safely. But I also asked that you help me let go and accept.
In your peace and love, I give my heart to you.
Amen

Thank you for all your prayers. I will keep you posted.
JC & G,
Annie

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One Left, One Remains

February 5, 2010 · 7 Comments

Today, my son’s world was rocked. And I have a feeling, due to happenings in previous days, it was not in a good way. When I arrived home, his car was in the driveway but there was no sign of him. I have left several messages on his phone, as well as called the place where he was supposed to be this afternoon. It is now 6:40 pm and there is still no sign of him. He is 22 years old and has disappeared before, choosing not to communicate, only to return home in the morning.
All day I have been praying for him. For even though my son leaves, to cool off, to walk off the stress, to be by himself, to deal with the issues…I know the Son above won’t leave, no matter what.  I know, despite the turmoil my heart is in, despite the ache in my gut, and despite my fear, Jesus is right here beside me. But I have a hard time, being like him, asleep as the boat sailed over rocky seas.
These are the times I have to remind myself, that Jesus needs control. These are the times I need to remind myself, Jesus will protect my son. These are the times I need to believe that Jesus will be with my son and with me. These are the times I need to pray that no matter what is wrong, no matter what my son is going through, no matter what, I need to love him and welcome him home with open arms. These are the times…
When words are no more and tears only flow, that Jesus knows what is needed.
These are the times…
When faith needs to be as strong as Jesus was on that cross.
These are the times…
When I must let go and let Jesus do His biding.
These are the times…
When one son has left, but one Son remains
These are the times…
That doubt is running rampart, but Hope must be held as tightly as possible, clenched in the vise of my hands, so tightly, it cannot seep between my fingers. Hope must be allowed to swell in the ventricles of my heart, overflowing into my veins, pumping rapidly so as to wash away the toxic poison of uncertainty. Hope must be allowed to rule my mind, carpeting my brain with lush, thick piles, covering the rotted hardwood of the unknown.
These are the times…
I worry about the one who has left, but I trust the One who remains.

JC & G

Annie

PS I would really appreciate if you could add my son to your prayers. Thank you.

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Heart Songs

February 4, 2010 · 4 Comments

I recently wrote about Mattie J.T. Stepanek. Mattie wrote several books about Heartsongs. In this month of Love, let the songs of our lives combine with the songs of others to inspire, reawaken, renew and enrich.

For one heart can beat a rhythm all alone. But when it connects with another heart, that is when the harmony begins. And this is one gal that can’t wait to join in!

JC & G

Annie

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